evilswan:

“I behaved as well as I could. Though perpetually saying to myself ‘Well, I care not how she decides, I care not much for her, the whole thing was only ever a game.’ As I left, she hung upon me and cried and sobbed aloud at parting, saying ‘I hope we shall meet under happier circumstances’. ‘Well,’ said I to myself as I walked off, ‘a pretty scene we have had, but surely I care not much,
and I shall take my time of suspense ver quietly and be easily reconciled either way’.”